Sorry for my rude language but I'm fucking pissed off right now. Two people who I absolutly trusted and loved literally turned and stabbed me in the back!
I fucking want to stab someone now, but we all know that doesn't help much.

Today I learned from a close friend that two people, one person I actually had very strong feelings for decided to turn their backs on me and talk smack about me to people who I barely know!
That pisses me off, after all that I've done to help, protect, and keep these two going. I've listened to their opinions and problems, fought some of their god damn fights and this is what I get?! I feel like they fucking spat in my face.

I can barely trust people right now, I hate people. And I'm dealing with a whole load of other shit that's been going on in my life, like dealing with fucking depression and paranoia, knowing that I've had thoughts of scuicide because of these little fuckers. I give up on people. I can't fucking care about shit now. My only priority is to keep my grades up, help my family, and get a good job, right now, these two asswholes can go jump off a bridge for all I care.

Believe me people, caring for people outside your family is barely worth it, I've learned that the damn hard way, knowing that two people that I loved want me dead, talk shit about me, steal my stuff, disrespect my mother and personal belongings in my damn house, and want to fight me.

My new motto: I don't give a FUCK.

This is very unlike me, I know, but I'm pretty pissed right now. I'm sorry if I seem rude or ignorant, but I just gotta cool off and rant for a bit... Sorry.